Too many thoughts have been taunting me the last 10-15 days. While there is nothing unusual about my being troubled by thoughts, whats unusual is that even while I was happy touring places like cape comorin and trivandrum these depressing thoughts were taunting me. So what was i thinking about that depresed me so much - Rebirth
I was thinking what the world would be like if one were to know what he is going to be born as? Of course there are several schools of thought about rebirth and i am sure there will be several lines of thought for my question. But just imagine a situation, a guy is struggling in this birth, has lots of dreams, but is unsuccesful is achieving any of it as hard as he might try, his role model in life late.Mr.X has achieved all of his dreams and also become a legend. And one fine day he finds out that he was Mr.X in his past birth. How futile will his life seem? how relevant will aims, goals and achievement be if one realises its a game played over several births and even if u win this one, u might be the biggest loser in the next?
btw the idea above is copyright 2009 Badrinath, I plan to right a book with this as the subject ;-)
--Badri--
I argue that its all false
and something bigger and better in life calls
but who am I trying to fool
after all I am in a management school
I am as much here for fame and the loot
as anyone with no spirtual root
so all these talks of morality and sainthood
are i guess cow skin to cover the fox under the hood
Hence when so many say I am wrong
and for a friend a confidant here i long
Its obvious I am making a few big mistakes
Since I am not a saint the others aren't flakes
But still the blame I try and cast on them
Even after analyzing where from their opinion stems
Oh god how self involved am I
For the mistakes I do i have no eye
My silence, and ignorance makes them smile
pretence and a pat and they like my style
I speak out their mistakes and what I opine
In their ego wounds I drop a few drops of brine
So the solution is simple - be diplomatic
it doesnt matter if some think its hypocratic
For thats what they seem to like
To your abysmal popularity it will give a spike
Alas if you are in rome be a roman
Else everything you do in here u will see a bad omen
Admit that since others see wrong it exists
stay assured that greatness and goodness in others eternally persists
for there exist only two solutions to the situation
and neither one is going to cos joy and elation
but if you choose to be you, more pain is for sure
but if you admit mistake and see greatness in others at least some fake friendship you will lure
--Badri--
A failure in a very seriously pursued project , a normal TT game that went slightly wrong, a domineering friend, a friend who neglects you for something , bad health and troubled loved ones . These are part of day to day life and never did I realize that these happenings over the last week had left me so hot headed that the scales tipped within just 5min of a lost argument.
I who had struggled so hard to be cheerful, team friendly and light headed lost my anger for the first time in abt a couple of months and that too for a not so serious reason. Perhaps I should have titled this post as "Blame it on spirituality". Perhaps its all due to over meditation(is there such a thing) and trying to be calm more than the mind wants u to.
Whateva be the thing i am too ruffled up for the day and am so god damned upset about being ruffled up.
Someone pls puncture me and remove all the hot air.
cheers,
--Badri--
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