Aug 21 2003 , slightly intimated by things that were in store and still recovering from a recent illness I set foot in my first IT(software) job . A small step for me , a giant turnaround for my life. Yday I completed 4 years in IT and when I look back at all that has happened, although there were mixed emotions the one that seems to dominate is a sense of tragedy. :) .
No jokes, well there is lot of money, too much comfort, some thinking to do and all that, but at the end of a day when u take life as a whole its so much beyond what one can do in an IT job. There is no feeling of having grown, nah promotions and change in title are trivial, meaningless things, like toys to kids, they can be fun for a while but in the long wrong they really arent signs of growth. Growth in salary is always good but if rs.1k increase means u are growing then when do u decide u have fully grown. Then there is responsibility growth but after 4yrs in IT and coming to place where i manage some small projects i am always left wondering how thats responsible. Sure there are people dying out there, children who are homeless and hungry and me writing java code or monitoring 10 people writing java code that monitors phone calls is responsible. I dont mean to sound caring and all that , I am perhaps the most selfish guy u will come across. My point is that there is no feeling of accomplishment in IT.
May be its me , may be its the works i have done, may be its just the fate that was aligned that way. Wateva it may be i am left feeling its been 4 yrs of tragedy and a life full of potential is being forced to run in directions it shudnt be and speeds much slower than it can. :) :) :) :) :)
unnum puriyalaya confused me tooo ;-)
cheers,
--Badri--
P.S: I celebrated yday with headache, bad health and moodiness .
There are things I have done that I dont wanna repeat
Like returning your rose and saying,'no thanks u keep it'
Not sure why at that time it seemed right
To avoid you and start our fight
Now when i call, u you wudnt say hi
But through the phone i can hear you cry
Is it cos you realize that I didn't mean to hurt you
Or because you can still feel the love i have for you
I never ever doubted if u were virtuous
And got all hyper only cos I got jealous
Whatever the reason was i know i was wrong
Our love, a beautiful flower i crushed with anger so strong
In mere words i shall not be able to express my apology
But please understand that without you i am bereft of all logy
come back to me even if you are gonna be late
For baby now i am convinced, even if it takes a hundred years -you are worth the wait
cheers,
--Badri--
I salute the Indian Heroes of freedom movement who lived and died for our Country and Independence.
JAI HIND!!! MERA BHARATH MAHAN!!!
cheers,
--Badri--
MODERN HEIGHTS
Height of Fashion?
Dhoti with a zip.
Height of Secrecy?
Offering blank visiting cards.
Height of Active laziness?
Asking for a lift to house while on a morning walk.
Height of Craziness?
Getting a blank paper Xeroxed.
Height of Forgetfulness?
Seeing the mirror and trying to recollect when you saw him / her last.
Height of Stupidity?
A man looking through a keyhole of a glass door.
Height of Honesty?
A pregnant woman taking one and a half ticket.
Height of Suicide?
A dwarf jumping from the footpath on the road.
Height of De-hydration?
A cow giving milk powder.
ORKUT HEIGHTS
Height of isolation?
Two persons sitting side by side using scraps to communicate with each
other.
Height of cowardice?
Two persons fighting through scraps.
Height of helplessness?
Receiving no scraps for a week.
Height of frustration?
The scrap server being down.
Height of carelessness?
writing a love scrap and doing a ‘send all.
Height of achievement:?
A person sending scaps to a girl wanting to become friends and getting
a reply.
Height of timepass?
A person sending scap to himself.
Heigtht of expectation?
Sending indian cricket team an e-mail, wishing them to win a match .
Height of repetition?
Forwarding an scrap to someone and receiving the same scrap forwarded
back to you by some one in the receiving chain.
Height of browsing?
U r swimming in the water tank and shout “f1 f1 f1?” Instead of
shouting “help” when u are unable to swim
Height of my dosti?
i always scrap,u don’t
Height of having no work?
Reading others scrapbook
ADULT HEIGHTS:
Disclaimer : Might contain offensive material, not intended for non-adults
Height of Patience ?
A naked woman lying down with her legs apart under a banana tree.
Height of Frustration ?
A boxer trying to scratch his balls
Height of Innocence ?
A teenage girl applying Clearasil to her nipple
Height of Unemployment ?
Cobwebs in the hole of the prostitute
Height of Laziness ?
A guy lying on a girl and waiting for an earthquake to do the rest
Height of Competition?
A guy peeing beside a waterfall
Height of Sophistication ?
Sucking nipples with a straw
Height of Disgust ?
While wiping after a good toilet dump, your finger pokes thru the paper
Height of Technology ?
Condom with a zip
Height of Trouble ?
A one handed man hanging from a cliff and his ass itching
Took a few days off from work and came home to chennai to prep for upcoming GMAT exams , Also wanted to recover from bad health thats been troubling me for a couple of weeks now. 6 days after i came here and setup camp what i have done
i) Watched
a) You've Got Mail
b) Bourne Ultimatum
c) Transformers
d) Ratatouille
e) Mr.Brooks
ii) Visited the physician to get meds for my throat and ear infection
iii)Visited my dentist
iv) Watched a lot of F.R.I.E.N.D.S and Seinfeld
v) Slept a lot
vi) Chatted on phone and net a lot
vii)Wrote 3 mock tests.
Well there it goes , wont u call that a productive week :)
p.s: also griped a lot abt my bad health to folks but dont think that counts as a task done.
p.p.s: also did sandhi regularly the last few days , although it aint an achievement very proud of the same
cheers,
--Badri--
The scenes are ones that are often seen in movies - at least indian or tamil movies. A small village taluk office, a creaky old fan, employees happily gossiping their day away and the VO the head of the gang sitting on his chair as if it were a throne and he the king.
We approach with papers of a ground/plot the govt is confiscating from us. If we submit the papers before a d-day the govt shall pay us rs.2 lacs we are told. "These papers arent right , there are joint owners for the property, you have to produce legal documents ascertaining the sole ownership i.e the other owner should say he aint interested in the property" - a henchman (i really dont know what his role is) says. "But my brother is dead" my uncle retorts.
"Oh i see , thats a problem , you are from district X and this is Y district. So you need to get so and so documents from the X district VAO" - the henchmen offers a friendly advice.
A few minutes of tiring travel and search later - "oh ok ok six thousandddu " another friendly henchman at the X office says. Me - "is that for the papers". "dont talk like u dont know the papers are Rs.400 but it will take ages to process, had u gotten the papers ready as soon as the person died it would have been cheaper but now we need Rs.6000 to ready them genereally we charge only 500 for these documents but u are getting 2lacs what is 6k, also this needs quick work" .
We drive back to the Y office and narrate what just happened and pat comes the reply "Yes pay them what they want i think they are being very considerate given the current rates, after that give us the papers and another 6K and we will get your job done."
Now thats the essence of what happened. there was more drama to it that i have narrated. A very rough kind of talking from the employees "give as much as we ask or get lost " kind of dialogues and abuse of a fellow petitioner by way of tearing his papers in anger.
Things that came up in my mind and solutions to the problem
i) Contact media for help
ii) Record the conversation approach anti corruption bureau
iii) Approach police or anti corruption bureau
iv) Threaten the officers
v) Muscle power
vi) Pay what they are asking for
vii) Negotiate over drinks
viii)Take MLA MP help
now considering the situation time available and the praticality of it option vi) seems the most appropriate to do. But my heart aches at the state of my country and doesnt want to contribute to the deterioration. On the other side its 2lacs vs 12k . Now i have to be either for it, against it or keep quite. The thing is i dont want to keep quite nor do i want to support it so The question is - What can i do about it ?
cheers,
--Badri--
Well i keep going quite often to chennai for 2-3 days so going to chennai might not be a big deal but this one is, for i am going there this time for a considerable amount of time.
Reason : i) Bad health, want to recover using mothers food and care :)
ii) Career, Education :)
So I am extremely happy about my jaunt , hopefully will keep blogging. Now got to go pack for tonight charminar, wish me happy journey
cheers,
--Badri--
